The Perfectionist's Guide to Losing Control

I'm planning a wedding and I've had to revaluate a lot of things in my life and what really matters to me. I based this book of the title alone thinking I was going to maybe get some tips to fix some of my behavior or just letting things go and giving slack to people I care about helping me with an event I care about. (like, no one will as invested in your wedding as you...ya know), things going as planned or not as planned... You know.
I feel so superficial now thinking this, little did I know that this book will change my life. I've changed my outlook - I can't explain it but It feels like this book was made for me at this time.
I've been trying to change things about myself but I'm approaching it to like obliterated instead of learning to manage and use it to my advantage. This idea was really striking to me. Learning that joy is not conditional, and there was a segment about suicide. The suicide chapter was what I needed.

“I'll never get what I want - I'll lose what I have” was my biggest revelation. Living in this state of constant fear and depression is what has lead me to really powerful suicidal thoughts since like 2022 - I've told my partner this year about them when I started to plan. I never could put into words my dread - but this is it. It's this circle of “I'll never get what I want - I'll lose what I have” is basically my drive.

This book has changed me. Excellent read - embrace your perfectionism instead of tearing yourself to pieces.