American Rapture

soft dnf. this is good so far but i'm not in the right headspace to read it rn

Very mixed feelings about this one tbh

eta: after having slept on it, I can say I kind of hated this. The way religious trauma is described here might be the most interesting part but it still falls short and leave us with a protagonist who's a bit flat, even with all the development she goes through (which, again, isn't as deep or engaging to read about). There's also the way it's written. So many ‘ums' and short sentences and then there are sentences that are meant to sound poetic but they come across corny instead.

And then, we don't even get a proper pay off when it comes to the main character's main quest for most of the book? what a letdown.

Just when I think I’ve read it all, here comes the sex-crazed zombies! But seriously, very emotional book that is a great reminder of what is truly important in our lives! 5 Stars ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️!

My expectations were definitely skewed here from blurbs and podcast appearances that set this up to be SO EXTREME. An enjoyable enough read, but certainly not boundary-pushing for the well-traveled horror reader. Felt a bit like YA Manhunt before the end of the world. Would def recommend to friends with religious trauma. Hoping Maeve Fly is meaner.

I found this novel on a "best" list and I'm glad I picked up this fast paced story. The first-person narrator-Sophie- is 16 and being raised in a traditionalistic Catholic family and community. As the reader is learning about her repressed world, a pandemic begins to spread to Sophie's home in Wisconsin. In a remarkable twist, the virus causes the infected to become insanely sexually agressive before they perish. Things get intense as Sophie leaves her home to find her twin brother. She faces sexual violence and zombie-like infected people. There's a strong "American Gods" reference and I think the author uses this to point to a deeper theme which I appreciated. Religious terrorists enter the story 1/2 way through. This sets up a battle between the Vengeful Reaping god of the Old Testament and fundamentalistic Christianity against a loving community embodied by the found family Sophie gathers. An excellent book with great action - and many thoughts about the state of Christianity in America today.

Not quite The Walking Dead fuck-murder-zombie plague through the eyes of an incredibly sheltered and probably autistic (/gen) Catholic girl with a gay brother. Probably fun for someone who didn't find the protagonist tediously childish or didn't mind not getting any of the big picture of wtf is going on.

Thanks to Tor Nightfire, NetGalley, and Macmillan Audio for the ARC. Holy shit, this was fantastic.

While listening to this, which I knew would be an extreme examination of religion, I also happened to start reading Stephen King’s Carrie—which I had somehow avoided all spoilers for, and did not know it was involving religion as well. Both of them start with a kind of deep dive into the bounds in which Catholicism is designed to hold down and punish women simply for existing. While Carrie’s mother seems to be well off the deep end, Sophie’s family is simply force feeding her guilt on a biblical scale. While Carrie is so religiously uneducated in womanhood that she is unaware of menstruation, Sophie is showcased to be so far removed that she truly doesn’t even know how the world itself functions. And while she secrets away forbidden books, she still lacks that openness that comes from being allowed to explore. While my own experiences can never truly impart in me the same struggles as a girl or woman in the same religion, I did note much of the same experiences and darkness that sermons secret away as the word of god.

The truly unimaginable depths the author builds—the abyssal pits of paranoia and despair—create such a vivid atmosphere throughout the entirety of the book. I am endlessly impressed at how the author has managed to create this dual horror narrative. While Sophia struggles with guilt, sin, and existing in a world where men of all ages notice a pretty face, she also has to exist through the genuine terror of a venereal apocalypse. Men and women alike are becoming enraged, animalistic, and predatorily sexualized. The near scares of sexual assault and rape mirror Sophie’s own base desires, and while her curiosity is innocent, they’re conflating her guilt. She cannot let in to her desires, though she may try, for fear of becoming infected—and isn’t that the same thing her parents have been spoon feeding her her entire life?

The novel is also, functionally, a powerhouse of a survivalist story as well. Even if the religious factors were dialed back, there is this reminiscence of Bird Box and Your Shadow Half Remains where although not undead, the population is virtually divided and then slowly eradicated all the same. The continuous desire to group together keeping the looming threat of outbreak ever present. And this novel hits all the notes of zombie breakout perfectly. The separation or loss of loved one, the unsuspecting hero turned important member of any group, a gymnasium turned tomb scene, even the quintessential stop-for-fuel gas station mistake. The fact that these two sides represent the same coin is still blowing my mind even after finishing.

The crux of the story is that to survive, to cross whatever hurtles exist between Sophie and her twin brother Noah, she must first survive the examination and brutality of accepting herself. If she cannot find and truly accept that inner self, she can never overcome the trials before her—whether they’re Christian guilt or mindless beings. And maybe, within that, they’re all already infected.