Assassins in Love

I wavered on the edge of just not finishing this book so many times. The hero is a misogynistic creep. Both characters are honestly pretty bland. And for a book about assassination, there's very little actual assassinations, or really any action at all, occurring.

Misha seeks out Rikki 18 years after saving her from the burning wreckage of her home after his mother assassinates her father. Since then, Misha's basically been in love with Rikki. I'm not sure exactly how old Rikki is, but after her father died, she was placed in government child care. Misha was in his twenties when he saved her. That's pedophilia right there. He goes out of his way to say that he wasn't interested in her during that time, but that she changed his life and he never went a day without thinking of her since... At one point in his internal monologue he asks:

What would their lives have been like if he had stayed with her in the hospital and refused to go with his mother, refused to go back to the Guild? Who would have been then?

reasons

somehow

grateful