ren sparks

soooo funny. I wish it wrapped up a little better though

pretty much just vile people doing vile things for the sake of being vile, but thats Ottessa Moshfegh for you.

on a real note though, the vibes in the first half CARRIED. I'm not sure why but I kinda got disinterested in the second half, so that's why I bumped it down to 3.5 stars. still love ya though Ottessa you brilliantly sick woman.

the movie actually ruined this for me.

i loved the premise, the setting, the WRITING. some very very unlikable characters in here yet i felt bad for them all in different ways. such a unique story that i think everyone should read.

I've been trying to think of what to say about this book for an entire day. it's been difficult to even find the words honestly. the two words that come easy are “tragic” and “beautiful”. this story is about love and hate, family and isolation, creativity and destruction, stealing and giving, living and dying. the way it was written is unlike anything I've ever read in the best way possible. you can just feel how much care went into writing it and making it the work of art that it is. all of the characters felt so real and that made it really hard to read at some points. I think the narration device used was so powerful but also heartbreaking. I think it's best to go in as blind as possible when reading this, so all I will say is I think this has got to be one of my all-time favorite books. the story itself and all of the perspective you get from it are so, so important and I think every one should read it.

here's some of my favorite quotes;

“I've seen so many young men over the years who think they're running at other young men. They are not. They're running at me.”

“I carried them in my fingers, like suitcases. Or I'd throw them over my shoulder. It was only the children I carried in my arms...But it's hard to keep them warm when the souls still shiver.”

“I have hated the words and I have loved them, and hope I have made them right.”

“You taught me to read. No one can play like you. I'll never drink champagne. No one can play like you.”