jess

the last pages were so ??? i literally gasped, like are we dreaming or are we fr doing all that ???

idk how to rate this book, it was so uncomfortable & heartbreaking & weird and i guess that's the point so that's good, right ?

but i really like this take on non-conformity, societal pressures & the strong need for escapism qui en découle. l'essence du livre est assez similaire à convenience store woman actually, which makes sense

they basically feel like they don't belong to society, et ne veulent pas se soumettre aux normes qu'on leur impose. so they decide to reject every “earthling” way of thinking, living and acting, thus totally embracing their “popobipianess” (completely forgot how to spell this thing)

3.5 stars, it was kinda entertaining but nothing out of this world. and i deeply wished mc could get revenge on her abusive family

i officially despise back to back alternative timelines

& this book just lost me idk, it just wasnt as good as i expected it to be

and a LOT of things were just trop tirés par les cheveux honestly, at some point i had to violently roll my eyes

it was doing too much, too many twists, too many reveals, too many turns, & those hallucinations? ass

very unsatisfactory read, 2.5

basically a conversation on : self hate, self gaslighting, insecurity, jealousy & inferority complex (that turns into a false sense of superiority)

didn't love the characters, but i certainly felt bad for them, and for the way society transformed their very soul

a lot of heavy themes, a lot of psychological issues portrayed, and an interesting dive into the fragility of the human psyche

× yuriko was basically objectified from the way she was born, and thus accepted her deeply unfortunate situation as her essence, the reason of her existence

x her sister was so, so insecure god, qu'elle a dirigé cette haine envers sa soeur. i hated her behavior but its like i get you

× same for kazue, miss gurl turned her inferiority complex to some extreme haughtiness, never seen someone gaslight themselves this hard

its like, sure these characters are deeeeply flawed, all of em, but i really can't bring myself to hate them. si elles avaient vécu dans des conditions familiales & sociales différentes, im sure they wouldn't be the same

and don't even get me started w the men in this book god, rotten disgusting vile THROW EM IN THE NEAREST TRASH CAN RIGHT FUCKING NOW, ALL OF EM


^ btw who killed kazue, or did they go back to the apt & he killed her ???

^ & i hateeeed zhang's monologue, like sir nobody cares your grandpa had 5 goats shut up

Got me feeling all type of emotions, mostly anxiety & left me empty.

Literally don't know how to feel about the ending, there's a hint of sadness, melancholy but a whole lot of nothingness, as if my soul got emptied.

Definitely recommend !

3.5

it was okay, except for sk's usual excessive descriptions/going off subject but oh well