Finding Fate

I liked it but my feelings are complicated

So I've gotten very into polyamorous/ “why choose” books recently. One of my reading groups recommended this series and I'm still deciding how I feel about this first book.

The bad:
This book is flawed. It definitely needs to be properly edited. It can feel disjointed and confusing with the way the scenes flow right into each other sometimes. There are also some plot points at the end that were pretty extreme for the character. That part lost me a bit. I can maybe justify the motivations by where the character's headspace was but it feels like a reach. It made me feel a little emotionally manipulated, so that's part of why I'm conflicted.

The good:
I really connected with the characters! Yes, I got frustrated with the need for an editor but that's mostly because of how good this book would be if it had been edited. I liked the way Peyton's background was handled. It wasn't over the top. It was just the reality of what she had to deal with at home.

The connections with each of the guys felt realistic to me. Each of them appeals to a different side of Peyton. I feel like they have distinct personalities and motivations, so the character development was really the strongest part of the book and we're still learning about them. There's also a bit of a mystery unfolding in the town and I'm intrigued by that.

On top of all this, it was really hard to put this book down! I read it in couple days because I still had to work or I would have finished it sooner. I'm going to continue with the series despite my mixed feelings. There's a lot to connect with here and I want to see where it goes!

So dark. So good. I definitely am not ready for this book journey to end.

The dirty talk and tease was very well-done. I do like the characters but the biggest issue I have with this book is the level of drama is too much. I like family angst in my books but the amount of absolute nonsense drama for the sake of drama was too much. Plus when emotional and physical abuse are a part of it, unless there's some serious action being taken against the perpetrators (like in Tijan's books) I do not like to read about it.

I have started the second book in this series and drama has exponentially increased and from what I've read about the ending in the reviews, I don't think I'm going to continue with the series. If there were the same amount of development in the relationship between the protagonist and her guys then I would probably be more interested in the outcome but there's not, so I don't care enough to continue.