Close to the Knives: A Memoir of Disintegration

It's not much a collection of essays as it is a collection of poems en prose, very reminiscent of Allen Ginsberg's Howl. His description is so captivating and cinematic, with run-on sentences going on for pages dropping truth bombs on his way. It's everything I ever wanted in a book.

I could pick any page at random, and any sentence could work as a devastating quote, but I'm gonna go with this one:
“Darkness had completely descended onto the landscape and I stood up and stretched my arms above my head and I wondered what it would be like if it were a perfect world. Only god knows. And he is dead.”