Attack on Titan, Vol. 30

I know I've made jokes about this series being mental abuse but I'm so serious when I say that I had a mental breakdown reading this. I mean I was hyperventilating, tears were rolling down my face, and I was stuck in the fetal position crying until my mother yelled at me to shut up so my step-dad could get some sleep. I'm genuinely not okay after this. I have so many mixed emotions. On one hand, I'm happy I finally got some answers but upset that what's happened is happening. But at the same time, I'm proud that it's finally happened after getting the true story. I've never felt so conflicted over a fictional story before in my life.